Bloody Nose

I do the ultimate no no. I sleep with my daughter still. Why? Well because she is loud. My husband wakes up at 4 and we have no time to deal with a screaming Kiki in another room. So, she sleeps with me where I can silence her quickly and not wake the money maker. 

You know what though, I don't care she still sleeps with me. I like it. I love listening to her, I love smelling her and I love kissing her. I know that one day it will stop. She might be much older but guess what? It will stop one day and I know this. So it doesn't bother me or stress me out. 

It isn't perfect though. She has an internal alarm clock set for 7am. I stay up late. 7am is not my ideal wake up time. But I do it because again, she is loud and quite persistent. Sometimes it's fun to just lay in bed and have her crawl and chat all over me. It doesn't last long because her brother has inevitably climbed in sometime during the wee hours and is sleeping with us. So, we get up and let him sleep a few minutes longer. 

This morning though was horrifying. Kikis alarm went off before James got up. She was being so loud I had to whisk her off to her room to sleep. Will woke us up this time. He was quiet but still, her conscious heard her brother and got her so excited she woke up bright eyed and bushy tailed. Me? I was so tired. I lay there with my eyes closed tired from being up late and tired from our move. The kids played and chatted. It was fun hugging them both and kissing them. I was having a lovely start to my day. Then Kiki slapped me in the face and magically had a finger go straight up my nose causing blood to come gushing out of it. 

I hate bloody noses. My brother used to have one everyday for years. Yuck. I had blood all over my mouth and neck and fingers. Oh. I should also inform you, it's pitch black in this room and I am super blind without my lenses. So, I have no ideas where the blood is going, I can't see anything and I have to pull myself up, away from the needy children and stumble to the bathroom. Kiki is now screaming because she wants me to hold her but I won't mostly because I am mad but also because I have to clean up. Will is doing great considering the horror show his mother looks like. 

My day was shot. I felt sick. I had a headache that was intermittent. I had flashbacks to the horror my day started with. Will never gave me a bloody nose. Of course my daughter would.